Okay, I know I haven't been on here in forever and a day or two. But I just posted this on myspace blog and I thought I'd post it on here as well to see if anyone should have anything to say about it. Just to take in some points of view should any one even read this...
Ya know, I've had this running through my mind lately and I think I shall share it. And if you don't want to hear it...hit the BACK button.
It's funny when you go through life and you make friends with people you enjoy being associated with and actually like spending time with. But then shit happens whether it be...they move, go to different schools, etc...or they just forget about you, they change as a person and either you or they do not want to associate with one another, but whatever the circumstance maybe...shit happens.
I remember walking down the hallways of high school and seeing all the ppl who claimed that they were either my friend or an acquaintance of mine. Today, I hardly hear nor see any of them, except for a select few that actually do stay in touch with me.
So from now on, I pick a choose my friends a particular way, this way I know who my true friends really are...and who are just merely acquaintances who I happen to talk to should I run into or receive a message from them every once in a bright blue moon.
Now, I've tested this theory of mine quite a few times, and it has worked out to show me who my friends are and who my acquaintances are...out of everyone who has my phone number, e-mail, or myspace messaging access...I take time out to not talk to friends just to see who will call or message me...you'd be surprised to see the results of how many ppl actually get in touch with you to see how you are doing and what is up and shit.
Now for myself, I will admit that, as of late, I have been extremely busy with a lot of things happening in my life, and I have not been able to get in touch or see certain ppl who, are in fact, friends of mine. And they know that I have some shit going on, but at least when I get there messages or phone calls, I do return them and I do let them know that, "Hey, sorry I haven't talked to you in a while, I have some shit going on that I have to take care of."
I'm guessing the reasoning behind why I am posting and saying what I am is because there were people that I used to consider some of my best friends...and you can ask anyone who knows me on a personal level that if you are my friend...I will basically give you the shirt off my back if I could, and if I couldn't I find a way. Now, I never see of hear from most of the people and it just angers and saddens me so, because those few people who I do not talk to, makes me think about times that I put myself on the line for them, taken blame for them, and did numerous favors for. Whether the favors would be lending money that I know I'll never see again, chauffeuring them around, getting alcohol from older friends of mine, getting "cereal" for them and making long ass trips to get it (sry, that term is on a "need-to-know" basis), and a ton of other shit.
Alright, I'm gonna quit bitching a moaning before I just continue rambling on about shit that most of you who are going to read this just don't even have to do with this...